Fantastic Dream

I had a fantastic dream last night. Not fantastic in that sense. Actually it was quite scary, anxious. It had magic, demons, castles, etc. I was a vampire-esque/demon-esque man attempting to save my land and the girl in the tower from ultimate destruction in the form of a big ass demon (think 20 people tall). So, lots of chasing, near-death experiences, pain, loss, suffering, hope, trials, new people/friends, new world, new magic, etc. Sounds like I should write a book, huh? Although in some ways, it sounds more like a video game than a book, but whatever. That was the 5th dream I remember having last night. I hate it when I'm exhausted, and am only half asleep for the entire night (day in this case). Although like this dream, sometimes it is cool to remember. I like dreams...
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I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos - Your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light
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Evanescence kicks ass. Anyway, that song basically describes what I think every day when I wake up. Well, besides the other thought which is "what do I have to look forward to today...is it really worth it to get out of bed..." The answer most often to the last one, is no, it's not worth it, no, I don't have that much to look forward to. But I get out of bed anyway. I try to find small things to look forward to (watch a movie, read a book, look at the sky). Then I think of things like chores and school, and still say, no, it's not worth it, no, I do not look forward to that. So basically I wish I could stay in bed and sleep and dream (nice dreams, not the anxiety dreams and nightmares I always have) for once. A dream world...with no pain, only magic and a world of my own creation.

~peace out, dream well