Fog and pain relief

So, got a new painkiller, in place of the others. This one actually works, amazing. One of these works the same as 4 darvocet. works as good as 1 darvocet did 5 years ago, maybe I got used to it. Which leads me to another question. Why haven't they invented a Drunk Pill...pain relief without the bad side affects (hangovers). Being drunk is one of the best pain killers I've ever used. Most pain pills make you really stupid/foggy/slur your words/trip over things (ie. drunk), but the pain is still present, at the back (or in my case the past few days, the very front) of your mind. But the times I've been in a lot of pain and gotten wasted off my ass, I didn't feel any pain. well, except I paid for it majorly the next day, seems to make my pain worse for about 3 days afterwards, then trails off to my normal pain amount. SO, they need to invent alochol in pill form, with no hangovers, and no residual/increase in pain after use. Wouldn't that be dandy.

As to fogginess, after my massage today, I tripped over nothing and almost fell face first into my massage therapist's chest. But I caught myself, then I looked trough THREE places in my wallet before finally finding my money. Then I threw my wallet at her and dropped my money on the ground. I think she was laughing at me, but I can't remember that well. I just remember throwing my wallet and looking down to see money fluttering at my feet.

Mom keeps saying "you'll be fine again"
and I reply "one day, too late" like Seether's song. Can't help it, but it's true. No matter how soon I get fine again, it'll always be one day too late. Try 5 years too late. I could bitch about how unfair it is, but I won't, I think I'd crash the blog website anyway. So, moral of this post: Life is a bitch. If you're lucky enough to have use of your mind and body, use the damn things, otherwise you'll regret it later. Speaking of regret, I dreamed about soccer last night, maybe that's what's put me in such a sore mood, always does it. What's that saying? don't cry over spilt milk or something?

~Ta ta (who's been watching Hannibal? Coffeeeee)