Wow

Holy cow, has it been THAT long...geez. Yea...Well, new things in the world:

you wouldn't guess from my typing, but I now have a part time job as a managing editor for academia type stuffs. Can work from home so it's uber ;) Guess my anal-retentiveness came in handy.

'Rents are currently visiting...and are apparently carrying the plague type flu, but *crosses fingers* Bro and I are still resisting.

I'll see all you college buddies at the Garry's wedding. Looking forward to the food in San Fran ;) Oh, and seeing you guys of course! ...mmm, food...

I'm really thinking I should change my blog name...although it's good to keep around, see how I was at a lower time. Although I don't need much reminding. Any stress or bad weather and I'm there. Still, been 9 months since I was on pain killers...of course beer consumption has risen in the mean time. Figure the rest of my meds are killing my kidneys, may as well hit my liver while I'm at it. B and I go to a real dive, it's awesome, you stick to the seats and the music rocks. He asks for a soda and I ask for a pitcher of beer all for myself. good times ;)

So, I'll write back in ... votes? a few months? a year? more? your guess is as good as mine o_O

~Isabo/Rae

damn blogger

Why is it that when I'm not signe din, the Blogger nav bar is in japanese, but if I sign in it's in english? Pisses me off. I've chosen english both signed in and signed out. yet it still pops up japanese when signed out. Oh well, at least I can read it right?

hello again

Yea, so, not so much with the updates. The whole part time job search? yea, not so much. Apparently no one wants a part timer college grad with health issues when they can hire high school students or full timers ;(

The rents and I have decided anyway that my job yet again is to work on getting my body stronger. Which sucks, I want to work out because it makes me feel better about myself, and I know I'll eventually get stronger, yet I don't want to do it because I know how much it will hurt, and for how long it will hurt.

and it doesn't help that my magical handed masseuse moved up north and got married. I'm still hashing plans to kidnap her and handcuff her in my house with a massage table nearby. No massage = unhappy rae. new masseuse = hurting rae. but bro helps out, still not the same though.

I'm so bad about keeping in touch with people. I don't remember the last time I emailed a friend, and for that I'm sorry. You'd think I could IM, email, call, since I don't do jack shit, yet there's always something else to do. reading, movies, cross stitching, gaming. stupid reasons not to do anything, yet I never feel the urge to do so. Probably part of my hermit lifestyle. So, sorry friends. I do think about you, quite often. You just get silent regard from a quiet source.

I think bro is pissed at me. I got shit faced last night and I feel ok today, and he's still hungover. Think it was the damn blue jellow shots. Those were deadly ;)

ciao,
Isabo/Rae

Wow, yet again...

Anyone else surprised to see how long it is since I haven't posted? lol, should be used to it by now. Guess I'll update:

In march I went to boston and visisted my bestus friends. I got to cuddle up to bam and bam's boy, I was a lucky princess.

Mom came yet again *shudders* over the summer, but she's gone now--heh, you know i love you :)

I forgot to give my respects to Wynee (5/27/04) and Jane(5/5/06) in May. Even though Jane wasn't found until December I've decided to remember her from her missing date in May. RIP dearest friends, I remember you fondly in my mind and heart, even if I don't post about you.

In June my childhood best friend found me (tracked me down through friendster she says). I hadn't talked to her since I was ...15? years old? been since beginning of highschool anyway. I've gotten together with her a few times, but considering I'm semi broken still, and she's actually got a job, hard to get together often.

I just bought tickets today for bro and I to go to a concert (Family Values Tour. Gonna be so freaking awesome, I love Evanescence. This'll be my 3rd time seeing them, can't wait. Amy Lee kicks ASS! Good news is it's at a good stadium with a lawn, so the tickets only cost 9.99 instead of 40,000 like normal! woohoo ;)

In recent news, I might soon have to change my blog name to Mostly Bent intsead of broken. Or just Slightly Broken? I'm gonna start sending my resume's out looking for part time jobs. Think I'm gonna lose the 'rents insurance in the end of august, which will be a nice boot in the ass...I just hope I don't crash and burn like I have every other time I've tried to get back out to the real world. Think I'm getting to the point now though where I'm gonna have to suck it up, do what I need to, even if I will be drugged out of my mind and crying from pain and depression...afterall, that's the real world right? I love being cynical in my old age. Good skill to learn early on though. I just hope I'm able to do it, and stand on at least one foot if not both of my own. Save the poor parents from looking after my ass. Hopefully I'll be able to return the favor when they're old...oh wait, they are old :P

Cheers from a slightly optimistic yet bad at staying in contact Isabo o_O

Best movies ever

Holy cow, I just saw the best movie, which reminded me of 2 previous movies that totally blew my mind.
First one was Children of Men. One of the most moving movies I've seen in a while. Very dark and violent (probably more so because of it's realistic and plausible reality that could be us today), but the underlying message of hope shines through.

Then there was The Fountain. It was dark and vibrant and had the most amazing cinamotography I've seen in a long time. It's done by the same guy that did Requiem for a Dream, and if you haven't seen that you should. Probably one of the best movies ever done about drug addiction (well, that and Trainspotting). The Fountain was probably one of the most touching spiritual movies ever. I think I liked it so much because it wasn't spiritual like a religious movie but was spiritual on such a grander level; it was higher than any material or physical thing that can be described. Amazing visuals, I think I could watch it over and over and pick out something new each time.

And lastly, the one I say today, Pan's Labyrinth, a spanish movie with subtitles. Not sure if it's released at normal theatres, we had to go to the "artsy" theatre in town. So freaking amazing. I can't even think of words to describe it. Another very dark yet visually amazing film.

So good, I want to go see them all again, but Children of Men left the theatre...granted the Fountain is still at the dollar theatre ;)

Ciao
~Isabo

Jane Park ;(

Teach me not to check my email for 3 weeks. Jane Park's remains were finally found on 12/20, after she went missing in early May. I don't know what to say. I'll miss her, as I already have been. On the one hand I'm glad she was found, wish it had been alive...but now there's closure (what a bad word for it)...no more worrying and hoping...but it was nice to hope, that somewhere she was safe. I'm not sure what's better, hoping or knowing.



RIP dearest Jane MY Park

Trains

So, last night it got into the thirties, so of course the heater kicks on. I'm either hearing things (yes, it happens...frequently >_<), or the heater actually sounds like the trains that used to keep me up in highschool. Our old house was in perfect place to hear the trains that ran 1-2 times an hour from 1am to 7am. Of course insomniac isabo perfected the train schedule based on lack of sleep. Luckily the heater (or my mind) doesn't sound like the train whistles or the chugga chugga or the screeching wheels, just the low frequency, distant roar of a train. Why is it always the little things that keep you up? Once the freeze hits it'll probably be the dripping of the taps. or the kittens walking across the carpet. Strange how the annoying, uneven rattle of the fan, or the sharp creaks the bed makes when I shift don't keep me up, but the soft constant noises, barely within human hearing frequency will keep me awake and wake me up quicker than anything else.

Luckily tonight I'll be too tired to hear things. massage + shopping + cooking of stuffing and cheesecakes + cleaning = dead to the world isabo

I'm just glad I don't have to deal with the damn turkey
Ahh, I love the holiday spirit

~Isabo

One word...oops :)

Heh, didn't realize it had been so long since I posted o_O In case any of you haven't figured it out yet, I'm very bad at keeping in touch. I don't call, I don't email, I don't send cards, and I don't blog. For instance, I bought manky a bday card a week before her bday...then I bought her present and had it here about 4 days after her bday...and yet it's still sitting on the counter...along with her halloween card...um, yea...at this rate she'll be receiving her christmas present in May >_<

I have decided to maybe revamp my site. I'm finally to the point where I don't consider myself completely and irrevocably (look, I know big words) Broken. I've glued together my broken bits. so, any votes on a new site name? Unbroken? Bent? Bite me Biatch? Sticky Fingers...oh wait, you're not allowed to read those thoughts :P

I might try to upload some more kitten pictures. they're big now. Loki is 9 freaking pounds, and freya's about 6.5ish I think. anyhoo, cheers

~Isabo